Red.Yellow.Green.

Last night's eagle bar night was a traffic light theme. You know the drill. Green = Single and available. Yellow= Complicated? Red=Attached/Taken of course.

One can always do variations of their own and do their own interpretation of course. I was meant to be red, and I put on a blue half-cardi jacket to beat the cold. APPARENTLY, it looks green in the dark (i.e. at eagle bar) cos James (Di Mascolo) said I looked like i was celebrating Xmas. HAHA. I wouldn't do red/green like that. pfft. Anyway, our outfits below: They were really yellow. haha. Mandy went with us to the entrance but decided not to go in after knowing we had to pay entrance fees. I'm red cos, I don't want any drama please. NO. (yet some drama's always unavoidable argh.) Anyway, I won't say I'm available.. that's just not how i feel now.


 
Argh i think the daph collage is a bit too tall, I can't get it to full size, which is twice that. HAHA. That's alright. still visible I suppose. Makes it less um. extravagant too haha.

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Have u ever felt this way...?

You wished some people would confide in you.
You wish you could be the pillar of support for someone.
You wish someone would open their heart to you.
That you can be the first one to hear about their day and be there when they're down.

And there are probably times when you're down and feel like you really wanna share it with him/her, but something just holds you back. You wonder: Do they care enough? Are they interested? Are we burdening them? This probably means somehow not enough trust and concern has been shown/established that makes you confident that this somebody will really be able to be there for you. You wish you didn't have to feel so vexed and confused even as you're already depressed. On top of that, it makes you just feel more alone. Same goes for joy. You wanna share happy news! Something trivial maybe, but just so yay! But u duno if that person is just as excited. And u think "nahh.. that's just stupid."

Then you think, perhaps somebody out there feels this way about you. They want to share their joy and sadness with u but do not dare to. ):

Life always makes a sport of us.

I miss the initial excitement! The magical connection. The comfort and familiarity from the start... that made everything feel right yet special. haha and the fiery passion. Damn!! Haven't thought so much about this lately, but somehow someone managed to surface in my mind consistently last night.

What can i say? Study hard girl. Go do your assignments! (ha. we all need reality checks yea?)